I laid out everything that was wrong with us to you in a carefully worded letter.
I showed it to you and asked for a break because I was so tired of everything that was wrong with us.
You said you didn’t want a break, you can’t be without me and you will change.
I decided to give you a chance, how naive of me.
I gave you the simple condition that we have to see each other at least twice a month, a very simple condition to most people.
We’re you able to keep it?
Nope
I decided to monitor you to see if you would actually mention wanting to see me instead of me doing it all this time.
Three weeks gowned by and I got nothing from you. We still didn’t talk much, just the usual shallow phone instant messaging conversation.
Then one day you finally mentioned that we should see each other. I was happy for a bit until I read that you’re actually telling me to go see you for your birthday which was still 3 weeks away.
What the fuck.
Did that letter and me asking you for a break not get to your head?
Enough is enough I decided so I said I wanted to break up for good. No breaks, no more shallow conversations and dwindling efforts. I just want to to be over.
Then you started your usual arguments and groveling. Your excuse was that you wanted me to come before your birthday and that if I do that, we would have seen each other twice this month.
No, fucking no.
The last time we saw each other was in february, that does not count. You’re just desperate for an excuse. And it wouldn’t make sense if you wanted me to come in march cause your birthday is in the middle of April…
Worst of all, later on that same day, I had the honor to hear that you cheated on me from a complete stranger. I didn’t want to believe it at first. I needed to hear it from you to believe it.
You tried to deny it. “I only talked to them online”, you said. Fucking liar.
Not until I sent you a screen shot and the picture of the guy who told me that you finally confessed everything.
Fuck.
You.
You use said that you were drunk?
Fuck you.
You said that you only went over to his house to play video games and just wanted to make a new friend?
Fuck
You.
Now I know why I was being neglected all this time.
It all make fucking sense now.
I don’t understand why you still wanna get back with me if you got all these guys on the side.
Wait who am I kidding, you didn’t even have the fucking decency to call me if you really wanted my forgiveness and to explain.
You’re fucking despicable.
I cant beleve I wasted a year on you.

When we barely see each other. What’s the point when our only way of communicating is through pointless phone IM. What’s the point when you’re never there for me when I’m down when I need someone.

So what is the point? Sex? We don’t even do it. Companionship ? I got friends for that.

I realized at this point that our age gap and distance makes it too difficult for me to be happy in this relationship.

Basically, there is no poin anymore.

Come on!! you’re only 21 …. what the hell is the rush ….

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Am i jealous? 

… just a little bit